she is crying and coffee wipe her tears..

22 january
we just had a talk, a little talk. he said something, its not something really. its a world to me. he told me many things, the point is there is a part in my self that he said i should change it. you know what? i am memory keeper for everything happened in my life.

my ex, ever told me that i should change something for myself. he said it. he had always said that i should change.
my friend told me those things too..

all of this time i've wasted, this feeling, those people i've hurt and everthing happen in my life is nothing? no? then why ppl around me want me to be change? can i just be myself?
if its the same thing that they want me to change, maybe i do really wrong and i really have to change my self. if its different? what? i do really wrong or what? i really curious what side they see in me. why they would asked me tho change?

hey to you :) maybe im too naive for writing like this. maybe you think i only see my perfection while i have so many imperfection... then i remeber something you said that you ever read book with title ' if you really know me, would you still like me' correct me if i type it wrong. then would you?
i know all of them want the best for me. but still, im human being, i got tired of all of this only stuff. me? change?  i will :) it'll be take my time..

ps : thank you, im tired of all these thing that want me to change in different things..